*sigh* alright. things seem to be getting more and more serious..
circumstances are evolving into what seems like multiple problems that are in desperate need for solutions.
I .. need..
frankly, i don't know what i need at the moment.....something. but hopefully i will find out soon enough. but maybe a new perspective on certain things. i need to change..im not a child anymore, nor have i been for quite some time now. i need to grow up and face the reality of this world. i just..
i don't seem to find joy in a lot of things anymore. maybe im just stressed because of some things and events that previously happened. i. don't. know. Nor do i think i'll be on that much anymore..
well school was awefully interesting today..not just another day
. it was ...interesting?
....I don't really see any value in them. Maybe a moment of happiness for some.. ..but as it turns out..i am best artist four years in a row -____-
you think it would at least provoke a smile..but no,perhaps im just synical on some issues..
.... alright im going to say this once. those of you who think i need a boyfriend can really stop being concerned about me. you all can easily toss them around so easily. but i think relationships should be more than that. these aren't just people you can pick to look good next to you. it's a mere waste of a chance to actually get to know someone. to see how much you love spending time with them, to see if they were made to fit in your arms. maybe i take some things to seriously. but i'll stop before my mouth runs away with me again
idk i suppose love has a different defintion for everyone
i suppose one can only be optimistic in times of sadness and grief.. im sick of seeing people who have done so many good things in their life & that are always so kind and go out of their way to help others and are suddenly piled with so many problems.. things they don't deserve..nor need. where in these days is Karma?
life..is life.. but it is possible to change certaing things..yes, so things can be prevented from happening. but it's best to always remains optimistic or..at least try to see the brighter side of things.
i..well I am really sick talking about myself >_<
.. so many things to so.. so little time X3 haha
but i digress, i hope you all have had a pleasant day
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